It has been a while since my last post a lot has happened and I would like to start fresh today-
I started a 90 day challenge yesterday.... Yeah that did not go at all like I though it would!! Before becoming a full time mommy to 2 of the most beautiful babies I was as fit as they come I prided myself in that. My image means more than it should to me due to so many things- I always made sure I looked as great no matter how crappy I felt- after my babies were born I figured my body would continue to be fit like always with little effort from real exercise WELL WHAT A WAKE UP CALL!!! It has been 5 years since my princess was born and I have yet to loose half of the weight I gained from both pregnancies. I blame MYSELF 100%! I decided enough was enough I could not live the rest of my life not wanting to look in the mirror because of what I saw- afraid of loosing my family or embarrassing them- I have decided to make myself do what I never really had to do before- WORKOUT!! Yesterday was my FITTEST-pffff- I felt sooo horrible about myself BUT I could not wait to work on day 2 today good thing is that I can only get better from where I am at now right??
I also decided to "blog" my journey to make sure that I can take a look at each day and see what I have accomplished and what I still need to work on :) This in it self is hard I don't like to show vulnerability but I figured it would help me stop being the person I don't want to be anymore.
On RECORD- I don't want to be skinny I want to be fit- I don't need to fit into a size 1 again I want to fit into a size ME - I don't care what the world thinks of me I care what I think of myself- I hope one day to just be happy with myself :)
Until later on today or tomorrow...
