hello. I gave up once again !! UGHHHH totally disappointed in myself at this point I need to get my head on straight and realize that my body is not the same as it was when I was a teen I want to be fit and able to run and play with my kiddos but honestly working for it has been a lot harder than I ever imagined!!! starting again today wish me luck!
until tomorrow...
Wednesday, August 14, 2013
Thursday, August 1, 2013
Failure in me???
Yesterday I was so ready to start day 2 of my challenge then I began to remember how horrible day 1 was and came up with every excuse why I couldn't do day2- I am sore, I have a guest, I don't think I can do it, I know I can't, my knee hurts, my family will see me, I am tired...... The darn list went on and on! I believed everything I was thinking and went to bed I woke up disappointed in myself how if I want to change Can i sit not do it!!! I cheated myself on the feeling of accomplishment, soreness, of saying I did it. I can't change what I didn't do I can change what I am going to do today so today I will do day 2 and day3 I pray I survive lol because I refuse to feel like this again.
My fear of failure is what is holding me back I know it. Failure is something I take as they come it makes my success taste so much sweeter to know that when I thought I could not go any further I kicked it to the side and succeeded.
Tonight fear will have to sit and watch me succeed!!!
**i decided to keep a personal daily journal as well. Yesterday I began preparations for my kiddos party first time we are making them one party. Hello kitty and spongebob are their themes. My sister and I worked on their center pieces it was fun! I still can't believe my babies are 6 and 5 already how time flies. Great day with my family :)
Until tomorrow.
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